For the first time I sinned with a man and I'm afraid!
Email sent us by Marco, Innocenzo replies, volunteer of the Gionata project
Dear friends of Gionata, I am happy to take refuge on your site tonight. My name is Marco and I am 20 years old.
Today I committed my first sin with a man bigger than me and I'm afraid. I'm afraid because I feel more and more that I am moving away from the Lord. Last year I had the opportunity to leave for Medjugorje, where the Holy Virgin appears to the visionaries. Some fervent believers, my friends, claimed that he called me to her to make me touch the miracles of her greatness. I went home with the heart full of joy and charging beneficial to be given to the world, but over time I delusion to be able to convert others and I feel I have lost that strength and I feel that I am falling further and further down.
Marco
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The answer…
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Hi Marco, I am Innocent, one of the volunteers of Gionata, welcome ... if you live the pages on the net of Jonata, if you read his testimonies and the many tales of lives like yours you will realize that there is nothing to be afraid if not your fear ...
Being gay cannot be a tragedy, but sometimes if we let ourselves be taken from our fears, everything becomes complicated ... you know it hasn't been long since I asked myself your same questions. How many prayers I recited and how many times have I wondered why I was and do you know what the answer was? None.
As an old friar said to me, "you live with consciousness what you are and what you will be able to build, you before gay you are the son of God and he wants you happy" and so I did. Slowly I stopped hiding and I started confronting other guys who lived the same situation as. I learned to deal with them and with myself and now, after the thirty, I found my way and also love. What can I say, if not to thank God.
To you decide which road you want to go, with fullness and serenity. Of course I understand that what happened to you hurt you, you discovered sex without love and I am sorry. But it is a painful discovery that sometimes is made on your way. Don't screw yourself, I'm sure you will soon come the day you will find who will be able to give you love, but first you will have to learn to love you.
And even in the darkest moments remember that there, even when you don't see it, he is there and cheer for you and for your happiness. God wanted you as you are, then learn to live with serenity what you feel within you. It will take time, but I'm sure you can do it.
But if you don't feel like walking alone what do you say to make a piece of road with groups of homosexual believers? They are here, just a click to find them. It is up to you to decide what to do. After all, free will is this. The good God gives it to us, to us the task of using it wisely.
A hug and soon friend of walking.
A volunteer of the Gionata project
